Hey Foz,

Its been almost 11months since the accident and at times I still expect to see you, which I know is stupid, specially as ive moved to uni now! Uni is going well! I passed History, its shocking isn't it? I even passed the personal study part, which i ended up doing in like just over a week! lol!
Ive been thinking about you a lot over the last couple of weeks and looking at your website again today made it all hit home. I miss you so much and I wont ever stop missing you! Your one special guy!
Love you mate!
Xxx

hi mate, its strange that ive only jus written on here i can't explainy but i no u understand. I've read through every single message 2nite even the ones that said 'i didn't really no him' and realised that every1 identified how much u loved ur family. ive been doin my best 2 help look after them but they r stronger on there own that alot of people giv them credit 4. As u no im off 2 ui now, a whole new beginning that i thought would b gd 4 me, but it doesn't change anythin bout the past. some of my earliest memories r of u and i am sure there r lots of memories i hav forgotten coz there hav been so damn many but i love u mate, i really do and im sorry that it takes something like this 4 me 2 say it but i jus hope that u take the time 2 read this coz i honestly do. I no alot of people and we weren't quite as close in ur last year as we had been but i still no that i could come 2 u wit anythin and felt so comfortable with u by that point that u felt like family. Thats prob y we didn't c each other as much the last couple of weeks coz i jus presumed u would always b there til i got very old. Missin u doesn't describe how i am feelin, words cannot do justice, i jus hope i can do u proud til i can c u again. Now that i am away i can't come c u as much but i will the second i am back, i would go c u 4 ages jus coz i felt at home and no longer alone wen i was sat there wit u. Haven't got the new command and conquer but will do soon, wat an awesome game that was. Want to start talkin bout the things we did but could b on 4 hours as we did so much, u no thats all that counts. So here it goes a new life and movin on, i dnt think im ready 4 it but will giv it my best shot as i would hav done if u were here not only in spirit but in body. I would also like 2 say thank u 2 ur family mate 4 puttin up wit me, i no i hav been an annoyance to them but it has really helped and only wish some day i can repay the favour.
Lovin u always mate, Pete

Hey Danny, just thought I'd say HEY! Lifes crarrp....i'm so bored! Mums on holiday again and I'm all lonely, Jezzie's doing my head in as well! I have so much homework too, ur quite lucky really lol. Only poking! So when u coming back??? Im fed up now! Even more than usual. Went out other night, it was really good fun! I got in2 a club lol! Can you believe it! Talking quite randomly aren't I. Hmmmm im bored! Im back at sixth form, happy year 13... its so crap, i just cant be bothered lol. Nothing is ever good enough eh lol....just so picky.
Was talking about u today... feels weird every1 left sixth form too. Like everyone gone now, everyone that knows you. I dont like it lol but hey wat can u do!
I miss u lots and lots you know. Life pretty much sucks now, not to sound ungreatful or moody, well not too moody anyway :) but it is pretty weird. House soo quiet, i dunno why but just kinda crazily thought you'd be coming back you know. I guess not but I'll still keep hoping! Do you know where your red england shirt is cos i cant find it anywhere? Its gone walkies?!!
Im going to see that famous guy on friday, you know what Im talking about. You better come for a chat or I'll be sad. Seeing as i have to pay to talk to you now lol!
Everything just seems so complicated at the moment, I just can't seem to be able to work anything out...it even sounds complicated. Just really need a good old chat about everything with you... but ur the reason i need the chat and I can't talk to you!! Just feel so lonely, feel just like i always stand alone now espesh with ma and pa. I dunno what to do, i dunno what to do anymore about anything, I need you to help me you always do! I just want to have a laugh again, I havent been punched in almost a year lol! Cleaned ur car the other day, i admit not very well but its the thought that counts lol! The inside is nice and sparkly tho..still smells exactly the same its lush! Breaks are buggered though, what did you do to them lol!!
By the way i hope you like the shirts got done, wag wrote his name rather large but he's special as you know!!
We had photos at school last week, just made me think of last year when we had them, and urs came through but you didnt wanna show me lol u looked so cute!!! It just got to me that it was last pic ever of you and thats already a year ago. Times gone so fast I just wonder what you'd be looking like now...not any taller obviously lol but maybey ud have more of a tash lol! Im scared of getting different lol sounds stupid I know but i don't want anything to change. I also pretty scared of forgetting what it was like to see you normally and stuff, just like it used to be. I find it hard to see you like that, I dont want to forget. I WILL NOT forget you, definately not I'm just scared I'll forget what it like to hug u and mess around with u and just see you. Its complicated i know i sound like an idiot. I need to have a good spill! Not done it in a while :).
So, Dads moved, know where he's a yet lol? Not hard to find eh! Dont know why he left you directions bless him, but think he was just a bit worried himself.. awww! I told him your not stupid and you know where he is but it made him feel better.
Corr Im babbling... is there anything else... hmmm... oh yea first driving lesson on friday...Im gonna beat your pass record haha! BTW I do always think of you, just hard again cos Im trying to make sense of it you know, its like it hasnt happened yet it actually has. Just cant believe u went through that, hate it!!!
Im gonna go do some homework now cos talking stupid, but come home and see me yea cos pretty lonely :( !!
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see u soon :) xxxxxxxx

Hi Foz,
How u doin mate? today is the 10th of october. Its bin like 4 months since we finished 6th form now, n im glad in some ways that it is all over. Alot of shit has happened since you went away n i fort ud wana know bout wots bin goin on, not that im sure that uv keepin an eye on fings goin down. Our boys didnt do great in the old footie tournament at skool but as u kno we did lose a valuble member of the squad, bein urself. We lost that brutalness in defence that u brought to the beautiful game n we suffered from it. no worrys tho mate cos it didnt matter who won the bloody fing, it was a good laugh and it brought together all the boys at 6th form.

There was plenty of ruggers partys throughout the year and plenty of binge drinkin and lairyness that us boys at 6th form usually contributed to them. It was always a good nite but the same cudnt always b sed about turnin up at skool first fing in the mornin. Bein tired, hungover and sometimes embarrased the next mornin never put me off goin to the party next week! good times and good laughs. thats wot it was all about. lol.

After the exams all us boys went to terrorise tenerife for a week. we managed it as sum off us got into sum trouble wit the polizia! sum off us took a slap aswel. lol. First nite we got there, we all went out drinkin of course but someone (no names mentioned) took the nite in his grasp and made sure that he was guna start the week off wit a bang by gettin para and bood in the other rooms. not to mention havin to b carried bak to the hotel legless. nice one siddaway!. we took most days easy, by drinkin water n chillin out by the pool to save ourselves for the big nites that followed the hot days. there was sum hectic nites that im sure u wud of played a big part of. Foam party at the castle and evry1 getin ill on the booze cruise. wot a rip off!!! lol. sum memorable moments. stu claimin he got a free prozzie! None of us still dont believe that he got a shag 4 buyin her a drink. lol. All 11 of us had the bollocks of a time out there and we will never forget it as we wil never forget u.

I dont kno why i took so long in writin to u. guess i was waitin 4 the right time to do so. Ne way im guna let u get on wit it, while we all get on wit our own lives. I will always remember u as bein the strong personality that u had and ur funeral was emotional but at the same time memorable. wil cu again mate!

Keep an eye on the boys 4 me. lol. thel need it.

Ryan D

xxx