hi mate, its strange that ive only jus written on here i can't explainy but i no u understand. I've read through every single message 2nite even the ones that said 'i didn't really no him' and realised that every1 identified how much u loved ur family. ive been doin my best 2 help look after them but they r stronger on there own that alot of people giv them credit 4. As u no im off 2 ui now, a whole new beginning that i thought would b gd 4 me, but it doesn't change anythin bout the past. some of my earliest memories r of u and i am sure there r lots of memories i hav forgotten coz there hav been so damn many but i love u mate, i really do and im sorry that it takes something like this 4 me 2 say it but i jus hope that u take the time 2 read this coz i honestly do. I no alot of people and we weren't quite as close in ur last year as we had been but i still no that i could come 2 u wit anythin and felt so comfortable with u by that point that u felt like family. Thats prob y we didn't c each other as much the last couple of weeks coz i jus presumed u would always b there til i got very old. Missin u doesn't describe how i am feelin, words cannot do justice, i jus hope i can do u proud til i can c u again. Now that i am away i can't come c u as much but i will the second i am back, i would go c u 4 ages jus coz i felt at home and no longer alone wen i was sat there wit u. Haven't got the new command and conquer but will do soon, wat an awesome game that was. Want to start talkin bout the things we did but could b on 4 hours as we did so much, u no thats all that counts. So here it goes a new life and movin on, i dnt think im ready 4 it but will giv it my best shot as i would hav done if u were here not only in spirit but in body. I would also like 2 say thank u 2 ur family mate 4 puttin up wit me, i no i hav been an annoyance to them but it has really helped and only wish some day i can repay the favour.
Lovin u always mate, Pete